Does Slow and Steady Win the Race?

Let's see. I'm still working 12 hours. My boyfriend is away with work until Saturday!! Oh yeah, and I've started doing MBE (minimal so far) and I have started on the last 3 essay subjects: property, comm paper, and ST. I have to do about 5 pages at a time with CP and ST and I forced myself to do 20 pages of property. These are the 3 subjects I've always ignored so any studying is more studying. It's just going slower now since I don't have a good grasp on these topics. The CP and ST handouts are about 35 pages but Property is 150+ pages. At this rate, I'll finish CP and ST this week and if I push hard I could finish Property by Sunday (fingers crossed).

Stealing Time

They say that if a group of women are around each other long enough that their monthly visits will start to be synchronized. Does the same thing go for relationships? Out of the 4 of us at work, we are all pissed at our mates. One is going through a divorce, another broke up with her long-term husband, and the newlywed's husband is giving her the silent treatment. As for me...let's just say that at this point in time, my relationship SUCKS (of course through no fault of my own...seriously). The worst part is that after getting in a HUGE argument last night, today my boyfriend wants to act like nothing happened. Usually I'm ok the day after an argument, but not this time. He said some down right hurtful things last night. He put me in a bad mood which caused me to snap at my poor dad and go to work with "tear" bags under my eyes. Then, he had the nerve to tell me what he wanted for Valentine's Day. I felt like telling him to kiss my skinny ass. I deserve the world for Valentine's Day and every other day for that matter. At work today, all I could think about is that I don't have time for this right now -- and maybe any more. He's so emotionally draining, financially needy, and I think, borderline, bi-polar. Anyway, enough space wasted on him.

I'm feeling good about my progress so far. I have gone through every subject except for property, commercial paper, and secured transactions. I could have every subject completed by this weekend, but I won't b/c I have saved the worst 3 subjects for last. For some reason though, I have been wide awake after working my 12 hour days and have found to review a little. Additionally, I take my books to work and steal study time every chance I get. Yesterday our computers were down for 2 hours so I got to study for 2 hours while getting paid. Also, the bosses don't come in until 9 but the office opens at 730 so from 730-9 I study and then from 630-730 I do the same (although I'm less alert and more tired by that time). I also find a few minutes of downtime during the day to crack open the book. I usually just review notes I've taken or go over the state distinctions. These are things that don't require 100% attention.

I should probably go to sleep now so I can get ready for the long day ahead. I need to remind myself to look for hotels and flights for the exam and to sign up to take the MPRE again (since my last one has now expired) before the 31st. Buenas Noches.

An alternative career

Well it's starting to snow in NC. It's not sticking yet, but the weathermen say it will. I've had a rough 24 hours with my "boyfriend." We're at an impasse and I don't know what's going to happen with us. I don't want to imagine my life without him but I may have to. Last night some fellow document reviewers and I took a pole dancing class at BRisque. It was sooo much fun and a great way to get my mind off of everything I'm dealing with. If this lawyer thing doesn't work out, maybe I'll take up dancing...hey, a girl's gotta pay back her $140,000+ worth of law school loans.

Today, though, I opened my PMBR book for the first time and got 21/33 (63%) on the Torts questions from the Blue Book. In a few minutes I'm going to take a shot at the Evidence questions. I'm behind the schedule I set for myself, but with this snow I hopefully wil make some more progress. Gotta get back to studying. Hope to write more soon. Cheers!

T-44 days

44 days until the bar exam and I'm feeling anxious. I haven't gotten through all of the topics yet nor have I started any practice essays or MBEs. I feel like I still have enough time though. My plan is to finish getting through the lecture handouts by the 26th. That'll give me a month to focus exclusively on doing practice tests. It's very doable. I only have a few more lecture handouts to get through, but they're the hardest ones...commercial paper, property, crim. pro., K, trusts, and secured transactions. Today is going to be devoted to K and tomorrow crim. pro. The hardest part of this all is working a 45-50 hour work week. Fortunately we can listen to music at work so I've been listening to the PMBR CDs on my ipod.

I'm feeling positive though b/c it has finally hit me that I can't do this again. Well, I will in July, but hopefully it'll be less stressful b/c I'll already have "Esq." behind my name.

I often wonder how far along everyone else is in this process.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year! This is the year I become an Esquire! My goal is to be licensed in Ga, NC, and DC (via waiver) by year's end. This most recent move has shown me that it's time to get this done. I need to start and move on with my life, and do what makes me happy. The first step is to pass the Feb. Bar!